Tuesday, 14 October 2014

mini rebirth.

So a few recent events have led to tumultuous and busy times as of late. This, this, this & this mostly. This last month has felt like a few dozen years. Neil looks like a legit kid now. Speaking in full sentences and blasting through life like the world was expecting him all this time. 

It has felt a bit like a roller coaster. The election this year felt so heated. Plenty of discourse was had leading up to it and the second all was decided, it dissipated. Opinions evaporated within 48-72 hours, mine included. It felt like a huge relief that is was just DECIDED. Anyway, I have felt in a bit of a funk about the state of the union ever since, but that's beside the point. 

Tonight is the first time I have felt like going on about it again. Only because I am deciding right now to move on and start being positive again. There are good things happening and all I can do at this moment in time is to try to perpetuate those good things further. 

It's been a bit of a learning curve this year in this new role of mine. It is scary and exciting to have your opinion mean something to people. It is hard getting used to actually. When I look back on the years I spent fretting about the words and thoughts I came up with, I cringe. It led to many awkward moments where I did not formulate things clearly and managed to insert my foot firmly into my mouth.  

This whole turning 30 thing has felt quite liberating. I feel like I am finally hitting my stride and getting a better grasp on what I am good at. It has taken a long while and many attempts and failures. And this is only the beginning of all of that. School was only part of the answer to the 'what should I do' question. 

Anyway, my own 'take home' lesson in all of this is that, things won't always go the way I want them to. Getting in a funk about them is okay for a while. But then buck up & move on to the next thing. 

Life goes on forever and always. Humans are the most resilient. We will all be okay. 

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